Yesterday I filmed and put out my first video. I don’t know what made me feel called to do it. I pretty much walked in the house from going on a walk/mild mild jog at the beach and started filming.
Getting on camera is something I have known I needed to do for a long time but had a lot of resistance towards. The best way I have found to push through my resistance in being seen is to just jump in, do it, put it up, put it out there, and let it be.
I hope I continue to do it, I know I will. I’ve become pretty good at the doing, even when it scares me. Major gratitude for having built that part of myself. Trust when I say it took time and work to get here and I am so appreciative of it.
I will attach the video to the end of this if you’d like an extra hit of inspiration today ;).
In it I mention that I am doing a lot of work around changing my thought patterns and reaching for the higher thought/feeling. I’ve talked about this here a bit in past posts and as always in the healing process, especially when you are knee deep in it, I have come to another layer.
I realized this morning that a big theme over the last year is being asked to see old things in a new way. Gabrielle Bernstein talks about using the, “I am willing to see things differently.” mantra in raising your vibration and reaching for the higher thought.
It’s funny how I didn’t even recognize that, that is exactly what I have been doing. I have been asked to see “this” whatever “this” ends up being differently for a while now.
I haven’t always stepped into it gracefully. I also didn’t have the tools to do so until fairly recently. Now that I do, it is showing up in all ways. Sometimes it’s a challenge but mostly it is a push forward and a feeling of mastering areas that I once really really struggled with.
Part of that is with my patience, another part is with being in the trust, and another in not being so hard on myself. All three are completely related.
I had first been asked to see my body and food differently. To make peace with it and accept it as is without condition.
I honestly didn’t know if I was up for that task. I would put in the work but I didn’t fully believe that it would have any outcome. And yet here I am. Comfortable in my own skin. Able to deal with the moments when I am not so comfortable and move through them quickly. Able to wear bathing suits and tank tops and fully fully enjoy summer. Able to eat without a panic attack or food plan deciding how my meals would look. This my friends was the greatest, “seeing things differently” aftermath I could’ve ever hoped for.
Then I was asked to see my home differently. Moving back to Long Island, into my moms house, from complete independence in Los Angeles.
It was a conscious choice. We were being given an opportunity to have a house and an opportunity to live in NY without having to live in NYC.
It was a challenge and sometimes still is, but honestly for the most part I love it. I have been given an opportunity to build a new relationship with the town I grew up in, in a house I (partially) grew up in. I see it differently and I am grateful to live here.
Now I’m being asked to see more things differently. My career, my relationships, my fears, my insecurities, my life. I am up for the task. I am knee deep in a healing moment and things are showing up every day to support that.
I am manifesting the access to the tools. I am connecting with spirit on a higher level. I am meeting my guides and bringing them into my meditations. I am becoming more connected with myself. I am slowly letting my defenses go. I am doing my best to be more patient. I am letting go little by little my need to suffer and panic and worry. I am showing up more. I am bringing more and more and more awareness to my emotions and my life. And I am working to forgive myself when I get caught up in an old habit or pattern. After all those old habits and patterns have been there for a lifetime longer than these new ones.
Seeing things differently is allowing me to move forward even when I can’t see that, that is what is happening. Sometimes I wake up and think, “Holy shit, how did I get to this place?” Becoming more conscious to the process/journey is also on my list, but honestly just the fact that I am getting to these places is what matters to me.
It feels like magic and in some ways it is, but really it’s my willingness to do what it takes that is causing these breakthroughs.
I encourage you to look at your life and start seeing things differently. Use the mantra when you get caught up in the old or current patterns. You may not be able to see it at the time, but trust me when I say, one day you will wake up a changed person and think, “Holy shit, how did I get here? This is amazing!”
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And as promised here is my first vid, featuring my crazy beach hair ;)!
All of my love and support always!