Magic is happening in my life right now. Like real deal magic and I am so excited to eventually be able to share.
Dreams are becoming realized. Efforts are being rewarded. The work is working, and I both believe it and can’t believe it at the same time. Mostly I’m just fucking grateful. So grateful. All of it, whatever it ends up manifesting into, will be worth the wait. Of that I am sure.
I am being given a second, third, fourth chance to tidy up my past. To sweep up the left over dirt. To love it, learn more lessons, to feel the pain one last time, to tie up all loose ends, to find closure, and finally hopefully fingers crossed put it to rest. And good lord, I have never been so ready or up for the task.
Timing is everything.
In one of the first sessions I had with my healer years ago, she told me to take off the cloak of my old story every day when I left the house. I have to be honest, I didn’t really do it. I was too scared to let it go. I genuinely was not ready.
I am ready now.
Oh boy, how I am ready.
On the phone with a potential client yesterday I said to her something to the effect of, This healing work happens little by little, you have to be patient, because one day you will wake up and be so surprised by where you are. You will say to yourself, “Oh my god I can’t believe it, all of this worked and I right where I dreamt I would be.”
It is the god’s honest truth. I am surprised every day by my growth. I am surprised every day by my healing. I am surprised every day by my connection to spirit. I am surprised every day by how much I am loving myself. Not just learning how, but actually doing. I am surprised every day by the little miracles. And am SO surprised by the big ones.
Big miracles are happening.
I knew they would. I always knew. And now they are showing up and I still can’t believe it.
I have a good amount of work ahead of me. I may drop off from social media a bit. I may not be as consistent with my blogging for a little while. Know it’s for good reason. Beautiful reason. Exciting and amazing and mind blowing reason.
I will be back. I may never even leave. I have no idea how all of this will play out.
What I do know is now more than ever I am being asked to step into my bigness and because of that, self care is number one. Reeling in and not sharing as much may be part of it too. It’s hard to tell yet. But when I know, I will know.
I have been feeling beyond exhausted. Happy. Very happy. Joyful even. But super tired. I have been going to bed at legit 9:30 almost every night. Every day after I pick up Ben from the train I just want to go to sleep.
I have to protect my energy. I see that now. I also embrace the tired. It’s okay. It’s not bad. There is nothing wrong with me. It just is, right now. And I get why. So I’ll sleep more. Fine by me. I love sleep.
I am also committed to deepening my energetic practices. Strengthening my boundaries. Understanding clear ways to truly take care of myself in this area. Which, is great because it’s something I wanted to learn more about anyway. So here is my excuse. Don’t you love when shit like this lines up? I do.
Synchronicities of late have been crazy. So crazy it’s hilarious. Mind blowingly hilarious. Jaw dropping hilarious. Pee my pants hilarious.
Mercury Retro is almost over the full harvest moon lunar eclipse is tonight. And I have never been so grateful to be tapped into the knowledge of what that means for me.
May I suggest taking a look at what is happening for you my loves? May I suggest checking your energy level? Amping up your self care practice. Meditating more and shouting out into the world all that you are grateful for and all that you want?
It is a powerful time right now.
Can you feel it? Can you see all the little miracles in your life? The big ones?
I bet you can ;).
All my love and support <3